Determinism (specifically causal determinism) is the concept that events within a given paradigm are bound by causality in such a way that any state (of an object or event) is completely, or at least to some large degree, determined by prior states. In physics, this principle is known as cause-and-effect. – Wikipedia
My father was a staunch advocate of woman’s rights, and also somehow a total chauvinist. A perfect balance some might say, and similar I always imagined Mr. Hefner in the ways he both objectified and glorified the women he worshiped as ‘bunnies’.
With the possible disbandment of Planned Parenthood and free woman’s health services, Gadaffi’s virgin amazonian security guards, and the media’s portrayal of women and womanhood becoming more desperate and surreal in an obvious effort to maintain control – it’s easy to understand why, even at 30, I’m as confused by public sexuality as ever.
I imagine myself as a young girl, fantacising about the Ariel-like red hair and green eyes which would (if I could wish them into exhistence) change my life for the better. I think about my obsession with the beyond perfect Vargas girls which adorned my high school walls. In hindsight and with new truths revealed I realize we all have grace, all women can liken themselves to a dream.
Silhouettes drawn from memories and fantasies with live models standing in for goddesses. The images drawn are of strangers. The real thing, what I’ve often called ‘grotesque beauty’, is what I look for in the day to day. Well designed buildings and perfectly sunlit urban streets. ‘Ugly’ things which function ‘beautifully’.
If I think about the lessons I learned from film and media about plastic surgery, vanity, and fears of aging, I realize i always got the impression that they are not desireable traits or behaviors. But the reality is that the world looks to signs of wealth and power displayed as permanently taught skin and abs and – it just goes on and on…how we’ve enabled the horrific.
What we see and are told contradicts what we are surrounded by in the material and commercial world. Things that cause us to think a certain way also do their best to convince us to do things directly aposed.
Remember the world can be beautiful. Nature is the best teacher of what is beautiful.
I don’t know where I’m going with this. But I wanted to say something, wanted to – I don’t know, really. I’m just going to keep focussing on fulfilling my true needs, sifting through my influenced wants, and making the absolute best with what I have.
Even when it seems all I have, are a jumble of Monday morning thoughts.